Hailat.

Seriously hailat.

I expected only 10-15 people to attend my birthday party on the 6th of November but guess wat, one after another, people start calling me and fuck, I guess the list can reach to roughly 60 by now. 60 people, how the fuck am I going to handle? I'm reducing the list to that I consider as 'friends' instead of those who just come, drink, ciao.

But I still have over 40 people. Dammit. 4 person per bottle on average. I need more than 10 bottles.

So, I'm reducing again to not more than 20. Hopefully.

Cos I seriously want a good birthday where everyone can mingle with anyone there instead of forming small small groups and that I have to worry when chicks go missing, assholes get drunk before me and me having to go front and back to bring people in. Not to mention the alcohol will finish before the 'Happening' period and the crowd only know me instead of the rest. I don't want any split groups, I just wanna have fun with all who I deem as friends and I want them to enjoy it as well.


Anyways. The place is set.

Coco Banana, Sunway Pyramid.
6th November.
VIP seating.
Roughly 5 bottles and above.
1030pm onwards.


To those who are attending, fasten your seatbelts for I'm going down with a bang and I ain't gonna get drunk without getting at least half of the peeps there drunk first.

Sunday

Boring Boring Boring.

I ain't got no plans today.
Sitting at home is a pain in the ass when you're already accustomed to going out every single day.

Why am I at home you ask?
I'm low on Vitamin M, Agong Face Paper, Cash.

Using too much lately on items which are not practical. One of them, Food. Expensive food.

"Hey look, let's try that korean restaurant, I heard their barbecue beef rocks."
"Errr... okay"
"Oh look, the bill is here. It's just RM230.50 with tax. Wow, let's split."

Fuck. RM100+ gone for a fucking cow dinner which taste just like.. normal barbecue beef.

"Hey, let's go down to poppy tonight."
"Huh? How much per pax?"
"Roughly RM50 to RM70 should be enough."
"Okay"

*3 Bastards fong fei kei*

"Fuck. I'm paying RM150 for this shit?"

BOMBAY

Dammit.


In 4 days, I used up more than RM400 in cash. W.T.F, Seriously.
I need to stay in budget for now, at least until my birthday is over.



Signing off.

Changed My blog interface again.

Yeap.

Changed it again. Let me know if it looks better than the previous one alright?

What do you know guys, I'm turning 20 this 7th of November! Wooot!! No longer a teen and a year later I am officially an adult!

Sigh. Time waits for nobody. I'm getting old. T.T lol.

Neways, Pushing the sad news of getting old aside, I'm celebrating my birthday at either 'MAISON' or 'COCO BANANA'.

HUH? Why those 2 places? WHY not MOS? WHY not BAR CELONA? WHY not POPPY?

Well, MOS is fucked up with the small corridors and the no smoking restriction.
And Bar Celona has alot of Fucking lala chais and uncles.
Poppy? It's not open on Thursday.

Huh? I tot 7th is on the Friday?

Yeap. It is, but I'm celebrating on my eve [6th] which falls on Thursday = Ladies Night *wink wink*

Hot Chicks, Alcohol, Cigarettes, Good Friends, A deadly Combination that can never go wrong.



Removed the List of names who giving me bottles cos kena diu. Ahaha!!


20 peeps probably. Or less. I want the alcohol high to last until 3am. *whimper*

Fuck, I'm being totally random.

For those who wana drop by, let me know oraits? So I'll include you in the list.
If you're a chick, well, just dress up and come. The more [chicks] the merrier, right? xD

If you're a dick, well, lol. Unless you're freakin close to me.

Ciaoz.

Boom Boom~

David Guetta!

Man, all his songs are good, but then most of his videos are gay.
Check this one out I attached.

David Guetta & Chris Willis - Love Is Gone



The song is awesome, but the video.. Err. You be the judge.

PS : Check out the grandma in the video. Ahahaha!

Update on my Current Status.

Oraits.

I'm feeling better today.

Thanks to the tons of support I got from friends especially Epo. [Who cried in front of my house begging me not to emo or her clan will surely fall.]

The sentence with [] is fake by the way. But she talked to me and gave me tons of advice. Thanks!



Neways, Updates.

I've finally thought it over.
I'm giving up on her and I'm wishing my good fren all the best in woo-ing her. ;)
I cant say I'm totally 100% back to the good ol Kaelvin aka Kaelz da gay but then, It's roughly 80% for now. I'll get the remaining 20% through time.

By the way peeps, If you have a microphone and a webcam available, check this website out in conjunction of Halloween.

Hotel 626

Fuckin scary shyt I tell you. Even I pissed in my pants. Wanna know more? Check it out for yourself. I ain't playing it again though.


Last but not least, Fuck you Jimmy Ghee for making me fail my coursework thus making me repeat. Niama chow chibai kanina bu hamkaling, I'm gona rip ur dick out and stick it on your forehead for a curse with the name of BITAS thanks to Black Shaman Bomoh Nasriq bin Pixel.

Fuck. I'm back to normal.

My first Emo post.

It's already 4am and I'm unable to sleep due to problems piling up one after another.

Having this difficulty to sleep for a week or two already and it's making me mad and very very depressed. I need some sort of advice, from you peeps who read my blog to overcome all these before I really choose to end my fucking life, forgetting all these fucked up problems.


First of all is my relationship.

I fell in love with this girl, and one day, she tells me she cant be with me due to some phobia she has with guys. She's afraid of guys touching her, even holding her hands makes her feel insecure. I know it is hard to accept, but I choose to patch things up with her and was given a second chance. During the second chance period, she treated me like I'm nobody and kept trying to avoid conversations with me when I told her she can tell me all her problems and I can maybe listen and give some sort of advice. I really don't mind her having this phobia as long as both of us are happy, yet I can see she isn't. We broke up a week after that. She even told me to leave her alone, which I honestly can't when a few things I see,hear,smell reminds me deeply of her. I've consulted a very good friend of mine to help out on getting vital information which I need to try and patch things up again. Guess what? We spoke over MSN earlier and he tells me he loves her, and that he wants to make her his girlfriend. Obviously, this gave me greater impact after what happened between me and her and now this? Fuck wei. I know it's not wrong for him to make a move since me and her are no longer couples and he has the right to try as well but then I feel betrayed. I don't know why, betrayed in a sense that I was treated this way by both of them. One a very good friend of mine, One someone I love.

He says he have the intention to woo her, but I told him that its better to give me time to try since it's also fair to me in the first place. I'm confused , disappointed and sad right now as I'm typing this.

The point now is, this girl I love told him to tell me that there is no longer any love between me and her which he did.
But can't I at least try my best before giving up? Can't I?

I really love her from the bottom of my heart.
I really love the way she smiles.
In conclusion, she's perfect for me yet I don't know if I'm the right man for her but I don't want to let go. Please help me.



Followed by my studies.

I have to "REPEAT" 5 fucking subjects due to the group leader of mine for assignments who eventually did not submit in the assignment to the lecturer thus causing me to have to be retained for another fucking semester which is roughly 4 months. I don't mind the money but time is what that is essential to me right now.
I'm already late, I don't wanna be late no more. I tried appealing, I tried contacting the highest authority in college and guess what? EPIC PHAIL cos I have no evidence to support my claim. Ok, fine. I look for evidence for you, so I called this guy (my group leader) and he doesn't pickup my call, he did not attend the classes as well for this semester which makes me think that he got owned badly as well and is not going to study no more.

This is impact number 2.


Then, comes impact number 3.

My emotions. It's getting me very very depressed lately, getting tired of life, getting fed up, it even made me thought of suicide. To just jump off a 20 floor building and ending everything that's so fucked up in my life right now. I haven't felt this way before in the past, never. Every problems I came across, I overcome it like a man. Stand up to my point and fuck the rest up. I never was a good guy, I never was a good citizen, but I enjoy my life till this very month which made me all moody and fedup. Some of you might have greater problems in life than me, I'm sorry for being such a pussy right now and I'm sure many of you out there never seen this side of me before. I know, cos I myself didn't felt like this before in the past. Not during the 19 years and 10 months of my life.

Back to suicide, I know it settles everything once and for all but it'll only hurt my family members and friends even more to know I have chosen this road instead of overcoming it with you guys. I pray for the day which I'll have a terrible mental breakdown doesn't come for I really is in deep need of help right now.


Sorry for being so emotional. I'm sorry.

Life

If life had a remote control, which button would you hit? And why?

01. Pause
02. Record
03. Rewind
04. Fast forward
05. Eject

I would definitely hit the Rewind button.

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Why?

Too many mistakes done in the past.
Never appreciating what I had around me.
Never took the initiative to study hard during high school.
Wasted time and money on unnecessary things such as cybercafes, snooker and cigarettes.
Never respected anyone whom I deem are not of my concern.
Lost far too many friends due to the wrong group of friends I mixed with.
Never had the chance to thank everyone who help me pulled through every problems I had.
Never learn from the mistakes I've done.

I know it's still not too late to change but for now and I'm enjoying my current life as it is. Emo? Nah. I'm just ranting.



Followed by 25 things which you might not know about me.

#1. I hate people who behaves as if they know everything, but they know nothing at all.
#2. I can sit in front of a computer or in a coffeeshop all day without doing anything.
#3. Very alert to my surroundings.
#4. Hates sweet stuff like cakes and chocolate.
#5. Hates people who dress up like fucktards.
#6. Very loyal to my special someone if in a relationship.
#7. Seldom get myself into sticky situations.
#8. I don't take naps unless I am freaking tired.
#9. I'm afraid of cockroaches.
#10. Respects people according to their status in society.
#11. Always underestimate my opponents first.
#12. I know how to cook very well.
#13. Can hang out all day in the novel section at MPH or Popular.
#14. Loves drinking tea.
#15. Always thinking of ways to obtain power and money.
#16. Very business minded, but doesn't have to cash to start any.
#17. Does not believe in god unless god shows me something extraordinary first.
#18. Hates over-friendly people.
#19. Can speak in Malay, English, Mandarin and Cantonese fluently.
#20. Has more Malay and Indian friends compared to Chinese ones.
#21. Will mess you up if I'm freaking pissed.
#22. I don't get panic at all unless there's a flying cockroach nearby.
#23. Hates staying at home.
#24. Hates being alone.
#25. Goes to the Indian barber for a haircut every time.

What Sorta Person Am I?

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

Hmm.. True.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

True also.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

Yea. Conlanfirm True.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Errr... Lol. True yea, But then paiseh leh if you don't say I'm serious.
I dam serious wan ok!


Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

What job? Niaseng. Although what you say is kinda true la.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

Hmm. Ya wor.. I wana concentrate on being Bill Gates can mou?

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

Diu lei la, this one wrong.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Lagi worst. I dun give a damn actually unless you're my special someone. Others wana see me which way then which way lo, Saupei la~~ "never judge a book by it's cover".

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

This one.. 50/50 la.



Overall accuracy of this Ding-Dong Shyt = 70%.

Why 70? Cos if you're reading this, you conlanfirm '7-7 49 days' lausai cos I no mood today. Hahaha!!

Lame.